The verdict is in

According to my nurse yesterday “I’m definitely pregnant.” I am currently experiencing beta hell. I cannot help but be wary. Cautiously optimistic. Worried. I worried throughout this whole cycle, so why should pregnancy be any different?? 

  

I was so excited and optimistic until the blood test. I don’t know if I expected a bigger number or if I’m just scared for the second number, but I can’t let myself just be…happy! I did start reading a pregnancy book and have exceeded the max of pregnancy apps on my phone, but it just doesn’t feel real yet. I’m doomed to constant second guessing. Beta #2 is Friday, I will be a ball of nerves until the results.